Sorry for my lack of activity guys. Last Thursday my Grandpa passed away and over the weekend we had his funeral. It's been a little rough; though he was in a lot of pain and with his passing he is no longer suffering. Grandpa was the first person, far back as I can remember, that got me around horses. His death has taught me a few things...just as his life did.

I hope to continue my artwork. I'm sure that sounds simple and probably a bit repetitive but I feel that it'll be good for me. For all these years I've drove myself to perfect horses. Thus far, with much help from family and amazing friends, I've succeeded. Now with a good grasp of equines mood and structure I want to incorporate new ideas. Color. Dimension. Other animals. Humans.

Media wise I've always had a love affair with colored pencils, probably always will. They will be my first love with it comes to media of choice. However I used to paint and with all these new ideas floating around my head I'm breaking out the paints again. Acrylic and some watercolor to start with. I'll be pushing for more patients on my part.

Thanks to those who read this, I just want to grow up to be the woman I need to be. I'm 22 now...I need to get my college done but I also need to focus on my relationship with God. I need to keep my word, without it (especially on DA) I'm nothing. Today I cleaned my apartment and got my art situated. This coming week is spring break. Originally I was going to go into my clinical for extra days but I owe a ton of art. For those of you who have been waiting, I apologize for taking so long. Over the past two months I've just been a mess. Until recently I didn't realize how messed up I was.

My expectations in myself were high, almost too high. With all that inner pressure to be wonder-woman the outside pressure from school and people just hit me like a brick. I shut down, curled up and didn't even try to dig myself out of any problems that arose. If I continue to do that it will kill me. Maybe not literally but my imagination, spirit and life won't come close to what they could be.

I love my friend dearly and I don't know that they understand. Truly my DA friends have meant just as much, if not more at times, as my few real friends that I see day to day. When I don't want to talk to anyone I'll log on and see how much you all help each other, it's wonderful. I know there's a few drama pockets here and there but if you look at those of us that have been around a while...it is a community. A family. You all have lend a hand or a friendly ear if I needed it. I never wanted to be a bother so I didn't say too much.

In closing, I appreciate all of you. From a favorite to fan art; it's got me though my hard days and made the easy ones even better. I hope this doesn't sound too cliche but I'm still working on being a woman of my word. All the art I've promised I WILL do. My new years resolution was to have everything done by March...I might not make it by March but I'm going to give in one hell of a run.

Much love to all
RaeAnne aka :devThe-Rink-Rat: